meow?

Please do not read this entry if u fufill the following criteria:

1) You cant stand me and my angsties. * close window *
2) you chanced upon this * close window*
3) you decided to pay me a random visit by giving me a call, then afterwards granting the superficial nice catching up with you neat trick * close window *



*shrugs*



Sometimes , I know i just need someone to talk to. In a very perverse sense , I am starting to find that i am talking less. Not in terms of well talking literally, but more of actually thinking what i am talking about. most of the lines go along the lines off "ok will get it done" Recalling other stuff. trying to be polite or just plain trying to be silly by well. striking up a converstaion just for the sake of it.


so shoot me.


in many ways, i know i have got issues of my own to deal with , i cant trust alot of people , i try to hide alot. I know. Yes. i know. full stop. And people find me too weird for their liking. Lots of people i try to make an effort to actually well, reach out too sometimes...well arent really worth my effort . I would admit that i am being self centered, but i really really want someone to just talk to me sometimes . Not in a literal way. but in a way i can actually relate too. i guess


desperate. you bet. angsties are hard to control for me.


ok. bitch section * clik clik*

i just really dont understand. ok. fool. you are a busybody. i think thats what most peeps would tell you. sometimes. you should just mind your own bussiness aite? yea. i rather not. think of it this way. better to keep the whisper. then listen to the silence. cryptic enough?



hardly anyone talks to me w/o something in mind anymore.




sometimes i really wonder. if i am just there for ornamental reasons.


selfish bastard. yeh.

clarence