Tales.

i wish i could fly away
in the slight recess i call a dream
maybe in your lingering bouts of steam
i could find you in the end of the spectrum of emotions

like Spirits with Steel , Nothing more than a fleeting fancy
As you thread the Milky way , leaving specks of dust along the way
Using the leftover threads to tell others , you were once here too.
Then, reaching over for your coughdrops, smile and pose for the camera.


Were You listening to the taperecorder again?
Listening to your own voice as you took stock of yourself
of better times, of times when the milk way was alot more fun? or was it?
Sometimes , Understanding is like another journey for me to make for you.

In English you say, its expertise.
In the language you know yourself. you call it existence.
In the language we speak to each other. you call it give and take
In the language you have already forgotten, it was longing.


Better to revisit your own grave ? naw.


clarence

hmm

been quite some time since i last really talked? have i?

just a quick summary of what happened i guess.



kotei 2005 came...and went........ thanks to hentai sensei ( snigger) mark , who well. did a crash course on how to really use a honor running dragon deck , i went into kotei and cause quite a major upset apparently w/o realising, fought the top player ( who eventually went to win the kotei ) lost to him. won a old school player ( he walked straight into the honor rocket trap ) , lost to another ratling cos i was just plain gold screwed , won and lost a shadowland decktype each, the second one kinda being my fault cos i made a few mistakes =/


but hey, i did pretty well. 5 games, 2 wins, and most of the time. i fought well oldbies =/ 4 oldbies >.<

the rest of the group diddnt really fare too well. eugene and leslie got top of our group, expected but well, they could have kinda done better in their own words , glenn , well. he was kind sad because his crane deck did not perform too well =/ mark well. i really expected my sensei to be alot better than me cos his deck is really alot more powerful then mine, but he ended up losing 4 games =/


best part. my decks configured to fight mantis decks, i did not even meet one. grrr.


mark was kinda happy with me i think >.< belief i guess. heh. not everyday an underdog turns the tables around. and the look on eugenes face when i won kamal : priceless ( you won a match? huh? who you win?? WHAT?..then followed by the semi stunned look )


yea. ego ego ego >.< bad.



in other news. ann well. at least shes improving in terms of drip , but shes still well pretty much bed ridden and the bed sores are coming out =/ still worrying

still worrying for sean i guess. he has had it quite tough lately, he din really come for training either =/ so well. there we go


SS guys are still the same old bunch i guess =) stuff happened , but well. just trying my best to do whatever they ask of me. train alone, fight easy i guess. the bbq at butterz place was great. heh. lotsa of erm *ahem* bonding between those old fellas. had quite an interesting talk with sue.


work has been.......frankly quite shitty. it seems as though the more nags i get, the more constricted i become and the worse i become , geez.


wrote a few stuff here and there, only to have belle just rip it apart at the bbq >.<>.< notetoself : always keep whatever you write.


pretty dead huh? Its not there isnt much to write i guess besides mundane reporting , theres tons. just that well. i guess i am just feeling alittle bit more then just being tired


they once said that whatever u do, the consequences dont always show, or sometimes, you beat yourself up knowing that you had to do something like that.

then you wonder , and think how many times do you just have to be the scapegoat.

clarence.