Irony. Packaged in a nutshell

me? a walking pillow. if you can live with that. i am always around.

Sunday, July 24, 2005

Corrs (borrow heaven) - Baby be brave

Ann

What were your dreams like once?
In peaceful slumber as you lay
Time passes like still waters at the bay

Were you in wonderland, the world of your own?
Dining with the queen of hearts?
Dancing your night away, whilst playing the spook with the cat
In wonderland, where did you stay?

Were you in the bamboo forests you so loved?
Taking in the fresh, crisp and cold air
Losing your gaze to the mountains
A dream within another, Letting your thoughts go wonder?

Or looking at your own scrapbook of stories
Faded photos, peeling dogged-eared yellowed bones
To your joyous relief , You understood, and remembered
Reading your own quintessiential guide to yourself?

Or, as you lay there awaiting for another day to come
Lost in the nightmare your loved ones were in as well
Hardly beliving in your own mortality
Ripples sent to the still waters by the bay

Where dreams gather and speak, i can still see you
In rememberance, watching a friend, pick up the pieces
for you. as you made your choice
Silence fills the space in your dreams, for you can see me too.

As i can only watch. and try to show, there is no other way.
I made another choice too that night. you know,
where dreams may come, if you choose to walk the trails at night
I will remain vigilant too.



Little toys

When did they grow up to be themselves?
Lost in their selfless wonder of the world around them

In youth, we play them, as they did play us
what goes on in their story instead?

Or , as we put them aside and go to sleep,
They awake, and patch their own wounds

then, tilling their souls, they look to us and they brim with tears,
hoping tommorow, the bite marks go away, and we will treat them better.

In another world, love and affection. Growing up
Touch and tell, The child-like innocence, wide-eyed wonder

In their eyes, where has the story been told
Of their whispers in the dark, praying to be stronger.

So as we awake the next morning, so many years ago. We see them on the floor
"Hi! could we play together?"




Southern blend

Orange smoothies,
Are we awake yet?
Its morning already love!
But its already evening!

Shall i fix the coffee then, love?
Its getting late! why dont we get to bed. You had a long day.
Have a great day ahead! see you later after work okay?
Hmm? You ok Honey? The tummy ache wont wait till next morning!

Hi! how was your day?
Feeling better? Need a backrub?
Whats for dinner? * sniffs you instead*
you know....work could wait till tommorow.....


the funnies.


clarence.

meow?

Please do not read this entry if u fufill the following criteria:

1) You cant stand me and my angsties. * close window *
2) you chanced upon this * close window*
3) you decided to pay me a random visit by giving me a call, then afterwards granting the superficial nice catching up with you neat trick * close window *



*shrugs*



Sometimes , I know i just need someone to talk to. In a very perverse sense , I am starting to find that i am talking less. Not in terms of well talking literally, but more of actually thinking what i am talking about. most of the lines go along the lines off "ok will get it done" Recalling other stuff. trying to be polite or just plain trying to be silly by well. striking up a converstaion just for the sake of it.


so shoot me.


in many ways, i know i have got issues of my own to deal with , i cant trust alot of people , i try to hide alot. I know. Yes. i know. full stop. And people find me too weird for their liking. Lots of people i try to make an effort to actually well, reach out too sometimes...well arent really worth my effort . I would admit that i am being self centered, but i really really want someone to just talk to me sometimes . Not in a literal way. but in a way i can actually relate too. i guess


desperate. you bet. angsties are hard to control for me.


ok. bitch section * clik clik*

i just really dont understand. ok. fool. you are a busybody. i think thats what most peeps would tell you. sometimes. you should just mind your own bussiness aite? yea. i rather not. think of it this way. better to keep the whisper. then listen to the silence. cryptic enough?



hardly anyone talks to me w/o something in mind anymore.




sometimes i really wonder. if i am just there for ornamental reasons.


selfish bastard. yeh.

clarence

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

okie. need to test this blog ONE last time. removed the offending table for all u IE users!

more quizzies...

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In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)

What Lies Behind Your Eyes?
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just a little idea of how am i feeling =/



Saturday, July 02, 2005

Remember me this way

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This was on my mind :)

jordan hill - remember me this way

Every now and then
We find a special friend
who never lets us down...

Who understands it all
reaches out each time we fall
you're the best friend i have found...

I know you can't stay
a part of you will never ever go away
your heart will stay.....

I'll make a wish for you,
and hope it will come true,
if life will just be kind,
to such a gentle mind,
if you lose your way,
think back on yesturday
remember me this way,
remember me this way.

I don't need eyes to see
the love you bring to me,
no matter where I go
and I know that you'll be there
forever-more a part of me and everywhere
I'll always care.....

I'll make a wish for you
and hope it will come true,
if life will just be kind,
to such a gentle mind,
and if you lose your way
think back on yesturday
remember me this way,
remember me this way.

and I'll be right behind your shoulder,watching you
I'll be standing by your side, all you do
and I won't ever leave
as long as you believe,
you just believe....

I'll make a wish for you
and hope it will come true
if life will just be kind
to such a gentle mind
and if you lose your way
think back on yesturday
remember me this way
remember me this way.
o.....
this way.