So yes, i enlisted and theres a whole bunch of things i have YET to do. namely
1) resend a parcel out of singapore - i sent 2 parcels out to sweden and one came back with a return to sender logo and 40 dollars wasted =/.
2) Bjorn and his super late bday present.
3) a few christmas presents
4) christophers ipod is still sitting on my table. (edit : i just checked someones blog and turns out i just wasted quite some cash -.-)
Guys please ring me up / email asap to get the stuff? >.<, i am developing Tekongitis. ( lack of hair + helmet = no brains)
Tekong is ok, i think either i really did something in my past life , or i am just really plain lucky, i got into a warrant officer's company. At least there isnt so much chicken shit to endure and we dont have to wait to rush, rush to wait that much. While i stil cannot sleep well, i have got a bunch of hacked-off bunnies for section mates. so i am still quite sane. In the past 3 weeks , i have learnt that :
1) I cannot shoot for nuts in the day time
2) 101 ways to stay awake during lectures
3) had my bed shaken at 3 in the morning by NO one.
4) been having 3 very consistent dreams involving people around me.
5) have learnt that while the internet makes you stupid, the army makes you plain dumb. I believe my english is now alot worse. So much for the try-to-learn-how-to-switch-to-proper-english-thing.
6) learnt that i DO NOT have a psycho motor problem. (whew)
7) learnt to be alot more sincere every night before i sleep.
8) seen chicken in 1001 different variations
9) seen guys who are just plain bo chup =/
10) wrote. alot.
11) learnt that there really is something about dreams. Perhpas i am just overimaginating things or something. argh.
12) that being sincere, in whatever you do, is just going to get you cheated, and hurt. Along the way. 13) happpened.
13) to stop lying, not because i want to impress, not because i need to, there wasnt a need in the first place, and when you strip everything bare, i lied to give myself a veneer of normality, because i was, always afraid of everyone else.
14) that i do crave for the attention people shower, and that i shouldnt be ashamed, even though i sometimes really literally need to be pulled out of anything. So heres the shout out : WHERE ARE YOU GUYS!?
15) to listen to myself. I will allow myself to be upset, that way, i wont be so afraid to tell the truth, and to stop lying.
16) That deep down. i really want to help the peeps around me , and that while i still think i am a fundamentally selfish and naive prick , at least i am better then some pricks who lie to me instead when i really just want to try to help. which leads to...
17) to respect people's privacy, and to defend yours like a bitch. AM NOT SNOOPING AROUND PRIVATE BLOGS. THANK YOU.
18) to trust people. despite my own reservations on it.
19) to never bite back at people. You might never know, how much you really hurt others instead. I ended up being paranoid this way on the receiving end.
20) what i want, whom i want to be, and what i need to do. Funny that it takes a trip to sweden, A talk in uppsala,a trip to lons boda ,a power trip at home, A talk at the 2 durians,a PC interview, and a klaxon everyday for me to come to terms slowly with myself.
Suddenly , it isnt baby steps. It's like i have so much to catch up on suddenly and so many things not to take for granted for.
